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I am in slump, I am in the rut. Can’t get up and keep me going, for some reason. I should be happy and I ultimately am, but I just feel that I should be better, nicer, more productive, more thoughtful… i am frustrated and stressed out about my stress levels lately.. I need to rant and vent and whine, so here I go, this blog is like a therapy for me because when you go to shrink that’s what you do, you speak and find an answer in your own words…. So why the hell am I so unhappy? It’s the little things, really. I think it all started when I lost my appointment book, um, a few weeks ago, I couldn’t tell when because I don’t have my appointment book which I have written in all the Red Sox Spring training schedule and which game is televised… and every regular season games by hand. Now I have to dig that info out everyday to see if they are playing/is on the TV. And I am getting ready for a big trip to Japan, which I am very excited about, but also nervous that I may not enjoy it as much - as much as “I should”… And a lot of my pre-planned things were on that frigging appointment book! I’ve copied over all my important contacts etc… And then there is other little things like my computer mouse not working and iPod acting strange and I have to reset it once in a while, and can’t figure out how to turn on the screen power savers and everytime I start the computer the Skype launches… My key chain is broken and need a little screw. I need to get my copy of wife’s car’s key… I know, I know if I spend some time looking into those problems I can probably solve it, but I am lazy and spend my time typing this meaning less post on my blog that never gets updated. Let’s see what else is bothering me, I broke my wash machine, and even though we got a nice new one but it is not correctly hooked up and I got a $220 speeding tickets on the Storrow Drive that was totally out of line and I am appealing it… I still can’t believe it.. I had no idea why he stopped me in the first place. It must have been a mistake… I feel unproductive at work, I have worked on this one project for like two weeks and still not done, and I am not happy the way it is turning out. I feel that I am going to spend too much money in Japan, everything is so expensive in Japan and dollar is so week.. 1 dollar is only 102 yen right now. Holy cow. I remember when it was 360 yen a dollar. I will vote for which ever candidate that can strengthen the dollar… no, I can’t. I am not citizen yet. Why? Because I am too lazy to file for my citizenship. Doh. Speaking of Too lazy, I haven’t done our taxes… What else… My desk at work is messy. My desk at home is messy. I don’t want my son to grow up messy but I am a horrible example in that department. This lent, I am really not doing anything to strengthen my faith. I’m not reading, praying… I feel like an failure. I am not as much on top of the news as I should be. I am not as good of a writer that I aspired to be… in English and Japanese. I am not playing my music lately at all. I am out of practice. I need to swing the bat. I can’t even make it to Gym twice a week, that was my goal when I joined. Goal that is achievable. I am not even doing that. I am too lazy. My cell phne is not charged, my gas tank was empty and it cost $50 to fill up, economy is turning south, my computer’s Japanese-Henkan sucks, and a lot of times I am typing Japanese when I want to type in English. Some of the website that I use is down. God, I am annoying. Geez, man I gotta lighten up. All the problem that I listed here is so lame. It isn’t considered problem for some people. So maybe this ranting venting whining therapy worked. I feel a little better. I think all i need is to get over that appointment book and move on. and enjoy life. I am happy. I have great family and friends and job that I like and I should be thankful for that. Now get to work.
